So much I want to say but don't know if it's appropriate or even wanted. Planning a future that may not even exist. Unsure whether to let myself dream or stay grounded and realize that things can come to an end as quickly and haphazardly as they started. I could just burst. So naive. Is it still a secret? Do I even exist? Afraid of getting burned but maybe that's what I deserve. I wish I could see your thoughts for even just a second. I need some validation. If I could freeze time I know exactly which moment I would choose. The world stops--does it stop for you too? The moment I long for takes one click of a mouse. One of a future of many. No more searching. Self-fulfilling loss. Frustrated. If you love someone, you should tell them--words of wisdom from my 5yr old cousin.


**I know the above paragragh probably doesn't make much sense and no, I'm not on any illicit substances. I just have had some stuff on my mind and needed to put them down concretely.